I stand in the threshold of 2014. I am in that place of stillness, that place of in between, the Selah, the Holy Pause. I am hesitant to step forward. Standing here contemplating seems quite safe. Stepping forward is a bit scary. You see, when I step forward, some baggage is intentionally being left behind, on the other side of the threshold, back there. I am not bringing them with me because I just don’t want ’em anymore. What’s in the bags? I have these neatly folded and packed because I just had a hard time letting them go:
- The feeling of letting myself down.
- Being too rigid with my time.
- Excuses, all of them.
- Not practicing what I preach.
Perhaps I should have set the baggage aflame so that no one else would have a chance to pick them up again (including myself).
Okay, now to step through. But I must take my word for the year with me, my focus. Inspired by a recent blog post by Lisa Sonora Beam, Audacity is the Cure for Self Doubt, I have chosen the word for 2014:
AUDACIOUS: intrepidly daring
My year ahead is one that includes the culmination of very large dreams my husband and I have had for years. Imagine with me a space in which Scott and I can work side by side, him in the video realm, me in the artistic realm, with enough space for a teaching/working studio. And also imagine that we live in this space and that it perfectly houses all of our specific needs. We are in a contract for this exact dream! Until the closing date, I will wait to reveal location and will try to keep my feet walking on the earth.
But this culmination is really just a beginning for me, and involves tons of hard work. I really have to stay focused and move with boldness. I am anticipating that my studio will remain in a state of flux for at least a year until all the dust has settled. While going through this process, I am going to have to be intentional in maintaining a creative practice of any sort.
Won’t you join me in intentional (free) creativity?
To help me stay in the creative zone for all of 2014, I have purposed to take Leah Piken Kolidas‘s Creative Every Day Challenge a little more seriously. In times past, I very loosely defined creativity. This year I want to focus on intentionally creating something each day, no matter how tiny, and then documenting this on instagram and flickr using the official hashtag, #CED2014.
And please share your word for the year, your aspirations, dreams and goals in the comments. Link to your blogs. I am excited to hear what you are up to!