Amanda Jolley

Reflection on pattern and abstraction of the subconscious

Shift -ed

Towards the end of 2008, I felt anticipation, intuitively knowing that something was about to change. I found myself making concrete goals, taking affirmative action, becoming that artist I’ve been telling myself I am. My journal pages reflected this.

I do owe much of it to this book:

Taking Flight by Kelly Rae Roberts

Taking Flight by Kelly Rae Roberts

But something pushed me, prompted me to purchase the book. I have so many on my wish list. How did this one make it to my home? And I’ve only made it through the first chapter.

This book, the first chapter of this book, widely opened a door that had only been cracked just enough to peek through. Fear had been holding me back from opening the door, fear of rejection, of failure, of depression, of becoming overwhelmed, that I might find out I’m not really an artist after all. And what did I find on the other side of the door? Why my art studio and myself.

One of my favorite movies is Strictly Ballroom. I’m not sure if it is the ludicrous dress and hair, the animated characters, or the underlying theme of the movie that made me fall in love with it. I’ve adopted its motto:  “A Life Lived in Fear Is a Life Half Lived.” And it’s Biblical…

2 Timothy 1:7  For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

After Christmas, the shift occurred. I have been Creative Every Day in an very active way, more so than ever before. Out of the blue I’ve received several requests for specific artwork or jewelry. I have a list of items I am working on and through. And when I get these projects done, there is more, so much more.

I am very excited about a specific project of which I’ll show you a glimpse:

There will be three 16×20 collage pieces in this series which I’m making for our church. I’ve decided to wait to reveal them until they are done and show more of a step by step process. Also I want the church to be the first to see the finished project.

So now I have a new dilemma. Between homeschooling, cooking, and working in my studio, blogging has taken a back seat. But I’m not too concerned. I’m sure with the ebb and flow of life that I will find my way back here more regularly. Until then, picture me with messy hair, a far-away look in my eyes, paint on my fingers, and passion in my heart.

amanda ∞

8 Comments on “Shift -ed”

  1. Amanda, I am excited that you are being creative throughout the winter. I was worried your blogging absence signaled a dampening of your Spirit. I can’t wait to see your finished work!

    I have never heard of Strictly Ballroom. I will have to check it out on Netflix.

  2. Amanda that is awesome!!!!!!!! I am so glad that you are letting your creativity take flight…..woo hoo!!!!! I love the image created by your closing words. 🙂

    Peace and blessings!

  3. All morning, the phrase “who I am in Christ Jesus” was rhema to me. I got reminded of that here.

    Your journey continues. Tapping into the gifts…

    We’ll miss you, but go- spread your wings, girl!

  4. Oh Amanda,
    You’ve eased my mind, again. I’m reminded that all we really have to be is who God made us. Your art is so beautiful. I love your colors, and I love you.

  5. Wow! I love the messy hair part (probably because I can relate), just add a set of pjamas to that and you are all set!

  6. Amanda – wow! I just thought of you today and wanted to ‘stop by’ to see how you are. Your artwork and journaling are so very inspiring – as is your life. I pray you are well and full of All He is and has. God bless you friend!


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