Procrastination vs. motivation
I’ve been working (or not) on this sampler quilt for 5 years now. I took a “how to quilt” class in which we machine pieced the blocks and learned to hand quilt. I loved the machine piecing and did several block-of-the-month quilt blocks after this class (although I have not ever completed a quilt). The block-of-the-month worked for me because it gave me a deadline to complete one quilt block. I loved working with the variety of fabrics, and I loved having a reason to work on my sewing machine. To follow the block-of-the-months, I needed a now-finish-that-quilt challenge. I’ve come to terms with the fact that although I enjoy it, quilting is really not my “thing.” If it were, I’d be there working on something new each day, and I’d have accomplished at least one finished quilt.
About this particular quilt, I chose the fabrics with my mom in mind. As I touched each fabric and chose each specific pattern and color, I cried. The choices had deeper meaning than even I could grasp. On the surface I chose these fabrics because my mom’s favorite color is yellow, and greens and blues have always been a part of the color palette in her home and wardrobe. The pink represents me. I begged to have pink walls when I was growing up, and she painted my beautiful pale yellow walls to a beautiful pale pink just because she loves me. (Since I’ve “grown up,” she had no problem painting over the pink.) There is some irony in this bright and colorful quilt. My mom’s favorite, favorite color to decorate with is really white. I guess without intention, I am infusing her beautiful white home with color, or will be when it’s done.
Since this is a learn-to-quilt sampler, there are only six blocks. I have hand-quilted each block and have gotten a quarter of the way done on the border, but I haven’t touched it in months. When I found the template for the border I thought, “Finally, the perfect border. Now I have the motivation I need to finish.” That was a year and a half ago.
Since I’ve begun my journey with my altered hymnal, I haven’t really had a desire to quilt. I’ve finally found that creative thing that I love best. It is taking me on a grand adventure into texture and color and visual imagination. I love it. It is what I really want to do. But I also have a desire to learn to knit and crochet. You’re not helping, Sandi, with all that encouragement and inspiration. I have vowed not to learn to knit or crochet until I have completely finished this quilt. This is the motivation I need to get ‘r done, perhaps.
I’m also hoping that this public acknowledgement of my procrastination will help to motivate me.
How about I just do it?