Amanda Jolley

Reflection on pattern and abstraction of the subconscious


After much prayer and seeking this past month, God has given me a verse for 2008:

Hebrews 12:1-2 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, (2) Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

I will run the race rather than running my computer.  

This is my year to focus Outward. My personality is one that is naturally introspective and introverted. This new focus will be unnatural to me, but this is a good thing. Nurturing and developing relationships is my direction. Although it is really quite easy and enjoyable for me to develop blogging relationships, my focus will be on family and friends that are physically in my life.

One of the greatest barriers I need to cross is using the phone. Chatting on the phone is not something that has ever come easily for me. I’d rather meet with someone face to face, but often I don’t see my friends because I don’t call and keep in contact.

To avoid overload, this new direction will be taken with small steps. If I make an effort to go outward at least once each day, this will be progress. My prayer is that God builds me up for His glory, and that one day this thinking will be natural for me.

I’ve also committed to teaching a Bible study at Veronica’s Voice. I’ve been putting this one off with the excuse that I just don’t have the time. After truly looking at how I was spending my time, I’ve realized that I have plenty for a Bible study once a week. I was procrastinating doing this because it is more difficult than being with my beloved friend, the computer.

I am excited for this year and look forward to the stretching that I will be doing. Although it may be much less of a priority, I will continue to blog. Not only do I grow by writing and sharing, I also find great hope and strength in the stories of others.

Are you making any changes this year? Going in new directions? I’d love to hear your story.

amanda ∞

8 Comments on “Outward”

  1. Amanda,
    We are so much alike in this, in alot of things.
    It is so easy to stay cocooned in my little world, avoiding the venturing out and discovery of blessed people and experiences the Lord has for me. Thank you for your beautiful words and the reminder to look outward.
    Love, Tami

  2. Ouch….you know how some sermons really step on your toes as if you had on open toe shoes that were smashed by steel toe boots…that was your post to me. 🙂 My prayer has been for more relationship building/nurturing and the phone and I do not get along (I will look at the caller ID and if it isn’t hubby or my parents, I am prone to not answer). Thanks for being gentle yet firm as I needed to read this today. Blessings for the new year.

    Well, I was preaching to myself, but so glad that others can relate. Sorry about those toes. I’ll pray for you as well on this venture.

  3. For what it is worth, I always find your blog an encouraging place to visit. Good luck with you new path and challenge!!

    Thank you. It’s nice to know I’m not just talking to myself.
    Your blog is quite fabby. What fun.

  4. Oh dear Amanda.
    Isn’t it just so very easy to relate *comfortably* on the computer? Your thoughts *resonate* with me. Thank you for voicing them. God Bless you, Amanda.
    Love, Carrie.

  5. Good luck with your new path. We all seem to fall into that computer trance. I know too many people that have put real life aside to “play” on the computer.

    I love your blog and I am inspired by you in many ways and cannot wait to read your posts about your new adventure.

    Happy New Year!

  6. Amanda,

    As you know, I am an introvert too and I am married to an introvert, plus. My poor daughter is an extrovert. She told me the other day that her favorite days are days we have so crammed full of things to do that we feel as if we are going to explode.

    I have tried to make an effort to connect more with real people too. Even as an introvert I had done that in my past life. Parenting a child with a developmental disability has changed that. It is so hard to take Marissa out of her comfort zone. It is equally hard to invite people into sometimes chaotic home ~

    May God bless your efforts and change you mightily as you are obedient to His call on your life.

  7. Hi, I guess I am bipolar. most of the time I am an introvert but occasionally be come an extrovert for a week, maybe less. Then I am exhausted.
    I don’t fear the phone but if you call me, I do wish I would be told what they want. They usually want something.
    I have tried two many times to change so I just ask for God’s Grace and I know I don’t have to change for him to love me more
    I read this over and I sound cynical. I am sorry about that. I will check in with you and see how you are doing. I pray success for you

  8. Stretching sometimes hurts, but if you are careful and increase the stretch slowly, you will build more flexibility and perhaps even some new muscle! I wish you God’s blessings for your new direction.

    My focus for this year is simple, ‘stay calm’. Somehow I think it will take me far! (chuckle!)

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