Tag: introvert

Nov 222010

Loving self

Art Every Day Month – Day 21
Canvas prep
Canvas prep for Faces: All Norah’s online workshop. I am ready to learn.

November has always been a stressful month for me. In years past, I struggled with seasonal affective disorder. Last year I was unaffected, and no noticeable signs this year either. I attribute the change to a very proactive stance, progesterone cream, and emotional growth. Nonetheless, November is still stressful. It is that month when I begin preparing for the continuum of celebrating and gathering and gift giving. With family traditions and a daughter’s birthday thrown in there, we are preparing for or celebrating an event until Jan. 2. I love all of these things. I just do not like the preparation, the shift in being.

I will remind you that I am an introvert. Although I do love being with others, my battery is recharged by alone time. It seems to be ultra-charged by creative time, so while being active with art every day may appear to work against the time constraints added by preparations and travel, I am so energized by taking moments to refocus and recharge. What may appear to add more stress by giving me more to do is actually decreasing my stress level because I am taking care of my most self-loving needs.

My favorite book says we should love others as we love ourselves.

Matthew 22:37-39  Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.  (38)  This is the first and great commandment.  (39)  And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

I am limited in my capability to love others fully if I am drained and barely hanging on. Nurturing self, treating self with kindness and respect, is essential in the ability to love others selflessly. By setting proper boundaries for myself and prioritizing my most essential needs, I am really loving others more completely. I am equipping myself with the ability to give from a very full tank.

Because I am married to one who always looks at the other side, I will answer the antagonist retort. There will always be times in life in which we are out of control, in which we are not able to nurture ourselves because our lives have been so drastically smacked with shock that we turn to survival mode. There may be times in every person’s life in which nurturing self is not an option. Corrie Ten Boom immediately comes to mind.

In addition to survival mode, everyone has past wounds. I am intentionally working to heal these wounds, and training myself for that day in the future when I will have no option to nurture self. I am learning to become so in love with who God made me that when that point does occur for me, I will still have love to pour out for others. At all points, I will draw from the strength that sustains me.

Philippians 4:13  I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

amanda ∞

Jan 022008


After much prayer and seeking this past month, God has given me a verse for 2008:

Hebrews 12:1-2 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, (2) Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

I will run the race rather than running my computer.  

This is my year to focus Outward. My personality is one that is naturally introspective and introverted. This new focus will be unnatural to me, but this is a good thing. Nurturing and developing relationships is my direction. Although it is really quite easy and enjoyable for me to develop blogging relationships, my focus will be on family and friends that are physically in my life.

One of the greatest barriers I need to cross is using the phone. Chatting on the phone is not something that has ever come easily for me. I’d rather meet with someone face to face, but often I don’t see my friends because I don’t call and keep in contact.

To avoid overload, this new direction will be taken with small steps. If I make an effort to go outward at least once each day, this will be progress. My prayer is that God builds me up for His glory, and that one day this thinking will be natural for me.

I’ve also committed to teaching a Bible study at Veronica’s Voice. I’ve been putting this one off with the excuse that I just don’t have the time. After truly looking at how I was spending my time, I’ve realized that I have plenty for a Bible study once a week. I was procrastinating doing this because it is more difficult than being with my beloved friend, the computer.

I am excited for this year and look forward to the stretching that I will be doing. Although it may be much less of a priority, I will continue to blog. Not only do I grow by writing and sharing, I also find great hope and strength in the stories of others.

Are you making any changes this year? Going in new directions? I’d love to hear your story.

amanda ∞